I'm starting this blog to find a positive way to talk about my life, it's problems, solutions, and everything in between. This past year has been in itself enough for anyone to handle and I have honestly considered writing a book about the past several years of my life in hopes that one day it will help others like me. I am the single mom of five very challenging kids including 4 teenagers and an 8 year old. I also have an adult daughter that is estranged from the family and has three kids of her own. Two of my children are biological and the other four are adopted (including the adult daughter). Each of my children have their own challenges as most do. However mine also include ADHD and/or mental health challenges. My 14 year old has Autism, ADHD, OCD, Bipolar, Epilepsy, and a feeding tube. So in all........this is my life.
Over the last year allot has happened in our lives. I was divorced last year after an 11 year marriage. This has taken a toll on my children as well as myself. I lost my home to foreclosure, my job, my daughter for a bit (moved in with my mom for a while), and it feels like I've lost my relationship with my children in some ways. With all of this going on, plus the past years of ups and downs, I found my breaking point at the beginning of this year. I was ready to walk away from it all. I am thankful everyday for my family and friends that didn't give up on me, and it's because of them that I am still here today fighting for happiness and peace for my family.
I have a boyfriend, his name is Rick. He's a kind man that I know loves me dearly. However, he does have his challenges as I have my own so this can make for a rocky relationship at times. His intentions are good and he is a good man. He is the first man I have been with in a very long time that I am not scared of. I have experienced years of being abused in so many ways including some physical, and being controlled by my partner. It's nice to have someone that wants to face life standing next to me and not in front of me. We'll take it day by day and see what happens.
I live in a small town in Indiana. I just moved here less than two months ago from an area that I lived in for 20 years. I made this difficult decision not only because it's what I could afford but also I felt it was time to break away from the drama that surrounded us at the old place. This move has been a challenge for us all. The kids have had to change schools and make new friends, and we're all farther away from our friends and some family. I've defiantly had my own challenges since moving. I don't know anyone here and it can be lonely. This is another reason that I decided to start this blog. It's a way for me to update friends and family on my life, the kids, etc.
Well this is enough for today. I will eventually get pictures up but I have to learn how to do all of this. I am not very computer savvy :-)
